Jan's Introspection

me and my latest - whether they be plans, insightful thoughts, ideas or realities.

Saturday, May 24, 2003

I just sold the computer, so you won't be seeing me very often now. It's just for a while, ... don't worry, I will be back online soon. Oh Yeah,,, there's always sprint pcs!

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

I never understood confession. Perhaps it's just a means to admit to oneself that you have done wrong. I remember going to confession. I did it and I guess when I kneeled on the bench to say my many "Holy Marys" it may have looked like I was saying them. I tried to time it so it would seem as though I followed the orders to a T. I never learned those prayers, so I knelt there and talked to God in my own way.

My own way continues to work to this day. I believe in "prayer" or as I like to refer to it "talking to God."

God is another thing I don't totally understand. I still refer to God as God for lack of a better term. Just know that when I say "God" it isn't necessarily in the same sense that you say God. It's all good!

Monday, May 19, 2003

From Monday Madness we have the following questions:

1. If somebody gave you a ticket and all expenses paid, would you travel to France for your vacation? Why or why not?
France probably wouldn't be my first choice, but I wouldn't have any problem going there if that's where my friend wanted to go.

2. If you had a chance to be on 'Survivor' and had to use your vacation time for part of the experience, would you? Feel free to explain.
Of course! I would expect that I would either use vacation time or take a leave of absence. What's there to explain?

3. Are you going on a vacation this summer (or any time this year) and if so, where to? Why did you pick this place?
Officially, I will be on vacation very soon! I will be driving to California which is going to be my new home. Why? Love.

Thursday, May 15, 2003

From what's on... right now --->

What's on your refrigerator right now?

On top of my refrigerator are 5 8 oz bottles of store bought water and the hot pad I was looking for earlier today. On the front and sides are paper, a recipe, a tazmanian devil magnet, picture of my boy Bravo, the fruit loop guy magnet, a merit award badge (which is BS), a note from former boss saying she owes me $600 and will pay it as soon as possible (dated January 10, 2002, 5 special magnets made by seester #5, and a photo magnet of seester #5 and niece, a small winnie the pooh calendar from seeester #5, two heart shaped magnets of vet visit reminders and two more mini pics of Bravo and one of Alley.
Soon, I will be moving west!

I have moved a lot in my adult life and thought I had finally decided to settle when I bought property in Georgia.

I originally came from the north; some people refer to Michigan as the midwest, but I don't know why. It doesn't seem to be anywhere near the west to me not even "mid". I have also lived in Virginia, Florida and for a short time, Texas. Somewhere in my mind, I kept the idea that I needed to check out the western part of our country. By that, I meant Arizona, Nevada or New Mexico. I never even imagined moving to California.

Now, I am looking forward to my move to California.

Every major move I made has been a move toward something never away.

My moves along with my life have been a pure example of continuous improvement, continuous progress toward a spiritual peace which I find difficult to explain but I know in my heart it is all good.

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

Packrat or minimalist? I am definitely the minimalist!

If I come across something that I haven't used in 6 months to a year, I get rid of it. I love getting rid of stuff!

I'm doing it now because I will be moving soon - diligently filtering through papers and discarding most of them. Slowly but surely going through everything I own and putting prices on them. I enjoy this!

$3.00 made me feel appreciated yesterday.

Although I like the money, it's not the money that made me feel good. It was the gesture.

I decided to sweep up the pine straw that was outside the pine straw trailer at work. I had some customers who bought 35 bails of the stuff, but still had room in their truck. I asked them if they wanted to take some of the loose pinestraw at no extra charge. They gladly accepted and the man proceeded to shovel up most of the stuff himself. Jeana and I continued to have a friendly chat with the couple as they lady gave each of us $3.00.

That was nice.
this week's questions are going to be all about another form of transportation; driving....

1. What make, model, and color of vehicle (price being no issue) have you always wanted to own?Generally speaking, I've always wanted a small truck type vehicle. When I purchased my Toyota Echo, I really wanted a Tacoma; my practical side (or 90%) talked me out of it. Of course I still want the Tacoma, but also find two other vehicles to be quite attractive. The mini-cooper (not a truck) and the Subaru Baja.

2. If you could add one feature to your current vehicle, what would you choose?
I would probably choose cruise control; it felt quite luxurious when I had a rental car.

3. You're driving down the road and you hear a police siren. What is the first thought that comes to mind?
Oh Crap! as I look down at my speedometer

Sunday, May 11, 2003

I like my job. I like my work. The problem lies in the fact that I don't respect the way the place is run. So, in order to keep my sanity, I manage to enjoy my job in my own special way.

My fun activity for the day...... Michael, the guy I used to work with when I pulled orders, came in with his wife and children. His youngest daughter is about 3 or 4 a perfect fun age in my opinion. Then the older girl is about 9 or 10 mature enough to know that adults usually aren't "fun."

I asked the girls what they wanted to do today. The mom groaned so as to say, "oh know ; you've opened a can of worms now." The oldest girl said she wanted to go swimming in a pool. When I asked if she had access to a place to go swimming, she said, "yes," but her mom didn't seem to think so. I knew I better do something.

I told the girls that I don't have a swimming pool, but if it was okay with their mom, we could play in the sprinklers. I was a bit surprised when their mom said it was okay. Off we went!

We ran and laughed through the sprinklers. After a little while, I told the girls we had to stop. I wanted to make sure they had time to dry before they were to get back in the car. It didn't take long to dry and as they were leaving, the youngest girl exclaimed to her mom, "I want to stay here with Jan."

just another great day at work.
Happy Birthday Susan!

It's not her fault she was born on Mother's Day!
Happy Mother's Day Mom!

I love where life has taken us.

Saturday, May 10, 2003

You have a love of travel and adventure, and you enjoy sports. You also have a very strong sense of fair play and want justice. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.

You want to be productive and feel useful, and enjoy helping solve problems. You like to be busy and not waste time. You have a need to be up front. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You have a need to be up front. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You have a need to earn money to prove your success to society and must learn the true value of material gains and status.

this is from - a name anyalyzing thing.

Friday, May 09, 2003

Recently, I was with a customer who was searching out the best insecticide for his yard. I brought him to this big bag with a picture of a gigantic, slimy looking grub. As we picked up the bag together, I began reading to him as I always do (customers like this along with holding their hands and doing all their shopping for them) and he took over the reading. He stopped reading almost as soon as he had started and said, "this is for grubs!" I gave him a mighty slap on the back while saying in strong drill instructor form, " YOU STOPPED READING TO SOON!" "KEEP READING!" He chuckled, paused and looked at me while saying, "I need someone like you around."

Just another good day at work.

Thursday, May 08, 2003

Driving down Interstate 16 on my way to work, I saw a dog. The dog was hungry. I was talking on the phone while this occured. The dog was very lean and just wandering; I saw him long before I was there. There was a semi driving beside me. The dog started crossing the highway just as I approached. As soon as I thought we were both in the clear, the dog turned around because he didn't want to be hit by the semi. I said, "oh crap." Of course Susan heard it (I was on the phone with her.) There was no thug.

The dog made it across the highway. I told myself that he will probably be dead before the day is over.

As I think about this, I say to you, Susan, " Sorry for scaring you."

Guess what I saw on my way home today? The same dog - walking along the highway.

This all saddens me a bit ~~ knowing the dog is homeless and very hungry, but sometimes it is worse if you try to rescue all.

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

I heard it annoys you when you see someone talking on their cell phone while driving!

You should have seen what I saw today!

A man was playing the harmonica while driving! He seemed quite pleased when the light turned red which allowed him to use both his hands.
Communication is important to us..........so this week's questions are all about one form of communication; the telephone! Have a great week!
1. When your telephone rings, do you drop everything to answer it?
Yes, I do; it may not always seem like it to the person at the other end because sometimes it takes a while for me to find which phone is ringing.

2. What is the longest you've ever talked on the telephone? To whom?
I don't know; recently, it's most likely been with Susan. I'm not overly fond of hanging on to a phone, so if there isn't really something to talk about, I won't last long.

3. Do you own a cell phone? If not; why? If so, what was your reason for buying a cell phone; and would you ever consider cancelling your 'landline' service? Explain......
Indeed I do own a cell phone - I didn't buy it; it's a hand~me~down. I've never been too proud to take hand~me~downs you know. I would consider cancelling my landline
service if it weren't for the fact that it is currently my means of being on line.

Sunday, May 04, 2003

I had a great weekend. It's still the weekend even though I had to work part of it. S was here from Thursday night until Sunday morning. It had been 8 weeks or so since our last visit.