Back to the "turning point"...... When it was announced that CP was closing, one of my first reactions was, 'I guess it's time for me to find a new talent.' During my walks, I listened to inspirational tapes and visualized success (as I see it, not necessarily as you see it). Then, after a while, the momentum was lost - I had wasted time not looking for employment and spent a lot of time on the computer "socializing." The computer, ladies and gentlemen, just like anything else, can be addictive. Since I had already taken alcohol out of my life, communicating with people I had never seen became my new escape. Balance! Balance! Balance! The computer nor any activities concerning the computer are bad. What is bad, is spending time on it that should be used elsewhere. Point being, balance is the key. Isn't it always? The search will never end. Being aware of it is probably as close as we will get to finding the balance. I say this because at least when I am consciously thinking of it, I am closer to balance than before. One day, I plan to start yoga perhaps then, I truly will find the balance. I'll tell you about it. Back to the computer thing. I have met two people who have come into my physical life. They are both pretty good friends. I should call Marlena, she lives fairly close and once in a while I hang with her and some of her friends. Susan, although she lives farther away, is a closer friend than Marlena. One day, the distance may be removed also. My point is that although I know i had spent a little too much time on the internet for a while there, the friends i have made make it worth it. It was Susan who helped motivate me to look for jobs at places such as UPS, FedEx and Home Depot. Thanks Susan!